Yeah. Everything's kinda going to shit.

My best friend got put in hospital on Saturday for an OD of painkillers. They're better now, thank god.

Some of my friends say I have to stop being so helpful to people and trying to solve their problems.

Since Friday, my life's been spiraling downwards very quickly.

I'm beginning to not know or care about much anymore. I just...
Cannot be bothered.

Mum knows I cut.
She's upset and confused, and all the questions she asks me I dont know how to answer, or I cant answer.

She doesnt understand how I can act so happy and still be depressed and cut.
"I hide it"
"You hide it bloody well. Talk to me for once and maybe you wouldn't have to do this!!"

I feel so guilty.
I could've helped my friend and made sure they didn't get their ass into hospital.
I could've helped myself and not got suck into this mess again.

I hate thinking. It's driving me insane..



Hater out



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